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[03 Jun 2009|05:09am]
Wow, I sound like a bitch, eh? I'm actually doing much better than the last post I... posted. Must've been that time of the month *wokka wokka!*
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[18 Dec 2008|08:51pm]
I'd like to tell you about my adventure this morning with a raccoon. I'd like to tell you... another thing I've forgotten in the time it took me to type the first sentence, which is all of ten seconds. Because after three years of playing WoW I no longer have the ability or energy to articulate my thoughts into text. I've forgotten spelling errors and grammar. Trying to translate thoughts into text is very difficult. And yes, I blame WoW. And also a decade of alcohol abuse. Its destroying my mind. And my damned ear rings so loud now...

I just know, when I finally decide to get help, my organs are gonna be SO pissed.
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[22 Mar 2006|01:57am]
[ mood | Your mom ]

I like freshly cut nails.

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[11 Mar 2006|02:18am]
[ mood | WoW ]

I am looking to purchase a mode of transportation. If you or anyone you know has one for sale, I'd appreciate it if you'd let me know. Thanx!

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[23 Nov 2005|03:35am]
My grandfather died the other week, the one I never really liked. At least I think. I was but a child at the time... But I remember not liking him 'cuz he booted his son (my father) and his family out of the house. And from that time on is when all my emotional and psychological problems started. Or were triggered. Or whatever. I don't regret much though. Anyway, this isn't about me. They had found out he had cancer, and all those radiation & whatever treatments later, apparently they couldn't get rid of it. I didn't think much of it at the time 'cuz I have so much faith in modern technology.

So today I found out him shooting himself was the cause of death. The cancer had spread throughout his body. He wrote in a note to his wife something about him not wanting her to watch him rot in a hospital bed. He had sent her out to the store to pick up something for him. Thats when he wrote his note and then shot himself in the head. We weren't at all that close, but it makes me think, and feel sad. Somehow I'm proud of him. Having the balls to do what he did. He was in a couple wars, so you can get an idea of what kinda man he was. I had thought his choice to go out was manly. Then my mother mentioned that she thought thats how he felt about it. It was either like this or drag out the rest of his inevitably painful life. In his head anyway. But I can also relate. We are after all akin. I respect him for the choice he made. Although its hard to think about. He chose this way to end his soon-to-be short lived life. His wife not suspecting a thing, coming home to find his skull and brains splattered everywhere. I am sad for the hand his health dealt him, the way his end had to be. But I don't miss him. I never did.

He was a Man, and thats how he lived his life.
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[07 Nov 2005|02:12am]
I don't understand why thinking makes my head hurt...
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[28 Oct 2005|10:55pm]
Yeah, had to buy a smaller knife. This one's too big. They cause panic, intimidation and stuff. You know.

Selling a Spyderco Endura Stainless Steel (C10) for fiddy bux. Lemme know.
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[19 Oct 2005|10:57pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

I just bought a new knife! Finally, my repertoire is complete. Its been so long. I can't wait to feel the cold stainless steel against my...
Oh, so yeah, I finally got a job. Money money bitch. After like three years of being idle, I finally gots me a steady flow-o-cash. And with no bills to pay (as of yet) or the need for illegal substances (like in my teenage years), it'll stick around for awhile. I'm also very good at budgeting and I have no desire to burn my loot at stupid fucking bars. Five bux for a beer, suck me gently. 'Cept now I'll probably be drinking much more often... Ah well, at least I don't have to buy cheap-ass fattening malt liquor no mo.

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[01 Oct 2005|07:19pm]
I wonder if having to wear a bra is like having a pair of balls.
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[25 Sep 2005|02:13pm]
Look at this sexy bitchCollapse )
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[25 Sep 2005|11:42am]
Lookee at what I'm drinkin'

Oh, you saw it right. 8.1 batches!

You love it, you want it, lalalallala... Stuff...
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[21 Sep 2005|01:21am]
I trimmed me 'stache too short, argh!
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[16 Sep 2005|03:04am]
[ mood | Its Thursday, Bud Ice ]

I'm tired of looking in the mirror and seeing my father. Even the lines on my young face look familiar. Rawr.

I suddenly realized the other day that I've known all along where to get an emulator for arcade machines, and the arcade games for it. Free, of course. I was always dreaming of playing X-Men, TMNT, Simpsons, and Rampage. Then here they are on my comp. If someone had told me in the late eighties to early nineties that I would one day own a computer that could play these games... well, I don't really know how I would've reacted. But I still remember the amazing, magical feeling when my mom would take us to Landmark Mall, and after [much anticipation] her long-ass shopping and our eating, I would get to play the arcade. These games were only fifty or seventy-five cents at the time, but I'd only be granted a couple bucks to split between me and my brother. So suffice to say I could only afford one play of the newest most popular games there. I was a young kid, so obviously I sucked, never made it pass the second stage of any game, even if I could obtain the instance to have a turn before we had to go.

So now I get to see them through to the end. But comparing these supreme graphic machines of their time to the consoles I play now, the ability to experience that original awe and magic that was so easy to feel at such a young age is now dulled. But I put as much of myself that I can into the newest games and consoles of this time, maybe trying to remake the past, all the while having a great eff of a time. Then I realize I'm making my future past now. Even now I look back at the lovely experience of Echoes, and am nostalgic. And that was last year!

For me, re-living the childhood magic is difficult, next to impossible. But no regrets. The old games are just as fun now as they were then anyway =]

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[09 Sep 2005|11:28am]
[ mood | Your Mom ]

"Did you ever think it may be you?"


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[03 Sep 2005|02:51am]
I finally did some drunken venture into my old house, the teenage memories house. Well not into, but the exterior which was just as big a deal as the inside. The beautifulest part is I took mad pictures. I'm so fucking happy. I finally did what I told myself to do eight hundred years ago. I even met some people on the street. Tyler Park is a park directly across from the house I speak of. They were so young! Man, I seriously filled some kind of hole in my heart experiencing this. Ugh, these pictures are fuckin' great. If I could share the old back yard with the original friends, I could seriously die happy. But I've also drank a bottle of bourbon tonight, so take it as you will. Or I'll take it when I read this sober. And never change a thing...
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[25 Aug 2005|02:33pm]
I think I'm fucked. I keep on gagging on beer sips. I am drinking the cheapest beer available in this area though. I hope thats the cause. It is my only medicine, alcohol. Medicine for the wicked. Lovely.
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[20 Aug 2005|11:49pm]
Instead of peanuts, I chase my beer with beer... bitches.
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[02 Aug 2005|10:58am]
I just took a double Natty beer bong and then puked it back up. What a waste. I'm usually pretty good at keeping things in that should come out, but not this time. The end.

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Poor Conker... He needs some Alka Seltzer!
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Bounce Babaay! [20 Jul 2005|01:08am]
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WARNING! ESRB: Language, Sexually Explicit Descriptions & References, Drug Use [20 Jul 2005|12:15am]
I found this randomly on MySpace. Bravo!
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